Sometimes

Sometimes I get confused, frustrated at the way things are or how they turn out. Difficult times in life seem to block and even crush me. I begin to get feelings of doubt of who i am, what might have hapened differantly if I had done something. I ask if what hapend was my fault, did i spurr on the inevitible? It is then I realize that I am wrong. I did nothing wrong. Others make choices, but they do not realized that the aftermath is caused by them and that the consequenses affect everyone in their life and people beyond their understanding. THose affected have to make choices for the best and that cant be changed. Right now those chioces hurt and stab me, making me wonder if i did the right thing. I stop now and shake the doubts from my mind, denying Satan the mike in my mind and heart and fully give it over to Jesus. The next year and longer will be hard but I know i made the right choice, though painful beyond what i can say. He gave and gives me strength to go on and face the new things that lay before me. Changes are unavoidable but i will look for ward to them instead of dreading them, beliving that I have the best guide and comforter at my side. All fear and doubt cast aside and pacing faster around the next corner of life that appears ahead of me.