Another late night... procrastinating on homework, and I got to thinking... *scary*
Things I want to do this year (summerish) that may or may not come true:
1: work a lot ... o.O
2: finish revising book one
3: have a Brad Pit movie marathon day
4: acquire half the movies on my "to get" list
5: clean out my room back home (... now where is my teleporter...)
6: sapphire mine
7: take off to Seattle for a long weekend
8: make a series of random music and short videos
9: take lots and lots of awesome pictures (duh)
10: swim in a good Montana lake
11: get my car a FULL tune up
12: go to the art museum
13: explore new antique shops
14: get in better shape (Help! I'm a cube, I'm a cube!)
15: ride a ferris wheel for the first time
16: go shooting
17: be spontaneously kissed in the rain (ONLY by youknowwho ;) )
18: go to a rock concert
19: go watch a play
20: have a good starter cushion in my bank account
21: have a picnic in a boat
22: replace my sad, flat pillows
23: go to more movies. I have hardly gone to the movies at all this year
24: improve at Mario Kart on the Wii
25: learn some foreign language to some extent
26: pretend to go furniture shopping
27: get the material for my Ren. Fair costume
28: keep learning, trying new things, and not letting too many opportunities pass me by. Never know if it will be my only chance! :D
Current Contemplation: Why the heck the song "Centerfold" is stuck in my head
Random Act of the Day: cleaned the bathroom at work today. It is now spotless!
Till Another Day!
Monday, April 04, 2011
Sunday, April 03, 2011
Wind Advisory
1. I should have left and gone to bed an hour ago.
2. This has been an amazing weekend, for starters. Forget that, it has been an amazing few months. But after a good, long talk tonight... it was slightly depressing: reassuring, and yet I feel like a failure doomed to repeat my mistakes. I still don't know what I'm doing half the time, just holding on by my teeth and hoping to land on my feet... though I find myself walking steadily (to my utter surprise) *whew*. I feel... kind of at peace... but overwhelmingly distressed. Gosh I hate those horrendous mixes! I wish there were no "but"s, no "if"s, no "at the same time"'s. I just want... gosh, I don't want the issues to exist just cause I try to prevent them, cause I feel the need to gourd myself against a repeat in history (cause I am too careful and slightly paranoid? Most likely). I don't want to have to keep reminding, asking, waiting, though I know I should? At least the latter part... but then I end crying like that little girl who broke her arm trying to be like the big kids (oh wait, that was me....). What the heck is the issue? What is it that I keep doing wrong? I guess I am the issue. It is me! Why did I put half of independent Sarah in a box? I am my own worst enemy. Gosh, I have had a wonderful history lesson on how I suck. Lord Jesus, save me from myself! o.O
3. Get a blog. Great way to vent and almost no one ever reads em.
4. I am way to tired to be blogging.
5. There is a wind advisory tonight. Be safe
Till another day! (At a more reasonable hour, with more legitimate things to talk about.)
P.S. Church was WONDERFUL today. The sermon was really really good, had a good time with the youth kids, painted Jesus on the game room wall, and helped teach the youth group about the underground Church.
Sunday, January 02, 2011
Restless after the Holidays
It is 4:34 and I cant sleep. I got super frustrated earlier. A lot has been whizzing through my head, not just tonight, but the past two weeks. So here it goes.
First of all, why the heck is it called the "Season of Giving?" Is it because we want to feel better about ourselves after a year of gorging our spoiled rotten lives of consumerism and.. well I cant think of anything else. Is it because we want a time of year to be selfishly selfless? Or is it because we are so caught up in our busy gogogogo lives that we have to have a countrywide issued date to think about others? Maybe we have been brainwashed so that when it is cold out and the kind old man is out ringing his silver bell a switch gets turned on that tells us, "Congratulations! It is now time to buy more for others." Don't get me wrong, I love Christmas, and I love giving to people, especially to those closest to me, but we shouldn't always give just when the calendar and culture expects you to. I think it is great to have a special time set aside to spend time with family and have an especially nice time, and more importantly celebrate the birth of our Lord, but we should not reserve this, especially the latter for only this time of year.
Another thing that gets me is people not giving even a dollar to help a charity when going through the check out. If you honestly need to be saving that dollar then please do! It is amazing how far a dollar can go. But it gets me when on a busy day of checking people out, only three people out of seventy five customers donate. My work supports the March of Dimes to help prevent premature births, fund research, and help families. Most people said "No, not today," but the worst response was a woman who gave me a dirty look, sniffed, and told me she doesn't like others telling her what organizations to give her money to. One, retail stores fundraisers don't just fund any small, half started cause. They do a lot of good. And two, from the diamond the size of your face on your hand and your shiny car parked wrong in the parking lot, it isn't gonna hurt you to give a dollar to help other families babies.
Working in retail doesn't help me with this because, more than any other time, people are buying and exchanging. My favorite customer, probably this whole year, was a lady who was buying really nice pairs of shoes for two little boys she didn't know. Her work heard about a family who had no money and unanimously decided to make this Christmas amazing for them. I love it when Churches adopt family's who are struggling, but it really struck me as amazing when this woman came up and spent over a hundred dollars on these two boys. She was worried that the shoes wouldn't meet the needs that the boys had, and that they would like them. Then she continued telling me about their wish lists and how she couldn't wait for her office to finally send everything. I was helping her for half an hour and the only time she talked about herself was when in reference to her and her office, and her hopes for the kids who got this beautiful womans gifts.
Now I am not saying don't stop Christmas, don't buy things for others, and don't give (or give overboard without thought to your priority's, especially when providing for your family), but what I am saying is that we need to make sure that what we do and why we do it are for the right reasons. Read your kids the REAL Christmas story, get excited about helping someone you don't know, make a point to spend time with friends and invite someone new, have a heart that does the things that make the Holidays special for the right reasons. Let's live our lives to remember and not regret, let's give with no thought about a return, let's live with integrity and zeal the opportunity to be true Kingdom people. Let's have a Season of Giving where we remember a year of the fullness of living our passions, giving to bless, and to the gift of the new year to challenge the one before.
First of all, why the heck is it called the "Season of Giving?" Is it because we want to feel better about ourselves after a year of gorging our spoiled rotten lives of consumerism and.. well I cant think of anything else. Is it because we want a time of year to be selfishly selfless? Or is it because we are so caught up in our busy gogogogo lives that we have to have a countrywide issued date to think about others? Maybe we have been brainwashed so that when it is cold out and the kind old man is out ringing his silver bell a switch gets turned on that tells us, "Congratulations! It is now time to buy more for others." Don't get me wrong, I love Christmas, and I love giving to people, especially to those closest to me, but we shouldn't always give just when the calendar and culture expects you to. I think it is great to have a special time set aside to spend time with family and have an especially nice time, and more importantly celebrate the birth of our Lord, but we should not reserve this, especially the latter for only this time of year.
Another thing that gets me is people not giving even a dollar to help a charity when going through the check out. If you honestly need to be saving that dollar then please do! It is amazing how far a dollar can go. But it gets me when on a busy day of checking people out, only three people out of seventy five customers donate. My work supports the March of Dimes to help prevent premature births, fund research, and help families. Most people said "No, not today," but the worst response was a woman who gave me a dirty look, sniffed, and told me she doesn't like others telling her what organizations to give her money to. One, retail stores fundraisers don't just fund any small, half started cause. They do a lot of good. And two, from the diamond the size of your face on your hand and your shiny car parked wrong in the parking lot, it isn't gonna hurt you to give a dollar to help other families babies.
Working in retail doesn't help me with this because, more than any other time, people are buying and exchanging. My favorite customer, probably this whole year, was a lady who was buying really nice pairs of shoes for two little boys she didn't know. Her work heard about a family who had no money and unanimously decided to make this Christmas amazing for them. I love it when Churches adopt family's who are struggling, but it really struck me as amazing when this woman came up and spent over a hundred dollars on these two boys. She was worried that the shoes wouldn't meet the needs that the boys had, and that they would like them. Then she continued telling me about their wish lists and how she couldn't wait for her office to finally send everything. I was helping her for half an hour and the only time she talked about herself was when in reference to her and her office, and her hopes for the kids who got this beautiful womans gifts.
Now I am not saying don't stop Christmas, don't buy things for others, and don't give (or give overboard without thought to your priority's, especially when providing for your family), but what I am saying is that we need to make sure that what we do and why we do it are for the right reasons. Read your kids the REAL Christmas story, get excited about helping someone you don't know, make a point to spend time with friends and invite someone new, have a heart that does the things that make the Holidays special for the right reasons. Let's live our lives to remember and not regret, let's give with no thought about a return, let's live with integrity and zeal the opportunity to be true Kingdom people. Let's have a Season of Giving where we remember a year of the fullness of living our passions, giving to bless, and to the gift of the new year to challenge the one before.
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Quick Update on "Growth".
So just a quick update since last night....
Church today was wonderful and the message was encouraging and convicting. I had been wrestling with fears and worries that had been growing for a couple months. I got in the car to go home, wondering where that strength I used to have had gone, and God slapped me in the face. He basically told me that I need to shut up and buck up. I have never lost that strength, I just stopped using it, His strength, when I thought I didn't need it anymore, opening myself up to unnecessary hurt. Yes the reality of what caused my worry will still be there and it's impact will not change, but there is nothing I can do about that. I am responsible for myself, not others, and how others act should not change who I am. I need to let HIM take care of those people and issues, and let Him work and grown in me as myself.
Random Act of the Day- went and took pictures in the wind
Current Contemplation- How a cloudy day and cool wind can be so overwhelmingly delightful.
TIll Another Day!
Church today was wonderful and the message was encouraging and convicting. I had been wrestling with fears and worries that had been growing for a couple months. I got in the car to go home, wondering where that strength I used to have had gone, and God slapped me in the face. He basically told me that I need to shut up and buck up. I have never lost that strength, I just stopped using it, His strength, when I thought I didn't need it anymore, opening myself up to unnecessary hurt. Yes the reality of what caused my worry will still be there and it's impact will not change, but there is nothing I can do about that. I am responsible for myself, not others, and how others act should not change who I am. I need to let HIM take care of those people and issues, and let Him work and grown in me as myself.
Random Act of the Day- went and took pictures in the wind
Current Contemplation- How a cloudy day and cool wind can be so overwhelmingly delightful.
TIll Another Day!
Saturday, October 23, 2010
Growth
Well, first of all, I am officially not contagious any more. Praise God!
Intensive week was last week and the class I took, Poetic Books, was awesome! I learned so much. For the most part we a had a friend of our professor, a man from England whose doctorate is in wisdom and the wisdom texts teach us. The study was over the poetic and wisdom books of the Bible. We went over the literary and grammatical meaning (from the original Hebrew/Greek/Aramaic), misconceptions, genera, historical aspect, dating and all of that wonderful stuff. I have to say that I will never read those books (Proverbs, Psalms, Ecclesiastes, Job, Song of Solomon) the same way again. Probably one of the best classes I have ever taken.
A lot of things have been going through my mind lately... too much probably... but I think on my feet and usually it helps me sort out things about myself, and those around me.
1. Where the heck am I going with my life? Do I have any goals?
2. Do I have an emotional problem (unbalanced, bipolar?)
3. And a lot of smaller interconnected questions and stress that boil and kill me cause it is my curse to hold them in.
Well, with #1... I have no idea. I used to know but God had other plans. I want to some day be a published author, I want to do photography as a hopefully paid hobby, by next year I hope to have a decent savings, and be able to finish school on time. I do want to be married and have a kid or two but that wont be coming for me for a long time I imagine.
#2- I fought over this one for a long time. I might have an issue, but looking back at my life I doubt it. I have always been an emotional person. Growing up I was, for a part, though I believe unintentionally, emotionally abused. I have always been a happy, optimistic person, but especially from 7-10th grade I used that strength as a shield and a mask. While still being able to be myself, I was protected, taking less injury. When I moved away from my hometown I had no expectations on who I was to be. I took my walls down. After graduation and going off to college I became more seriously aware of my need to be looking towards my future, and doing so, the things I suppressed from the past began to surface. Now I am dealing with having to deal with those emotions and realized fears and weaknesses without my wall. I have put my trust in people and shown my heart, having no shield as a back up and it has been wonderful, yet incredibly painful. I am usually either calm/pensive or happy, but I don't want to be just because it is expected of me. I fear people think I am upset when I am often in thought or just solemn and calm. It has been hard, but it has forced me to rely more on God and let Him be my strength. I am no where close to where I need to be, but I am sticking to that road none the less.
And now #3... well that is just something I need to straighten out. I have gotten a lot of that off my chest lately (cant tell you just how wonderful that is) but I think I need to get it all out, or just forget about it cause it is not life or death, it is just the way of things and I need to give it up to God, cause none of it will get resolved until I do.
So much growth to do... and I look forward to every day of it.
Random Act of the Day- decorated my door at school with Kelsey
Current Contemplation- having to measure up to someone by another persons expectations... and bacon... bacon is one of the most amazing foods ever.
Till Another Day!
Intensive week was last week and the class I took, Poetic Books, was awesome! I learned so much. For the most part we a had a friend of our professor, a man from England whose doctorate is in wisdom and the wisdom texts teach us. The study was over the poetic and wisdom books of the Bible. We went over the literary and grammatical meaning (from the original Hebrew/Greek/Aramaic), misconceptions, genera, historical aspect, dating and all of that wonderful stuff. I have to say that I will never read those books (Proverbs, Psalms, Ecclesiastes, Job, Song of Solomon) the same way again. Probably one of the best classes I have ever taken.
A lot of things have been going through my mind lately... too much probably... but I think on my feet and usually it helps me sort out things about myself, and those around me.
1. Where the heck am I going with my life? Do I have any goals?
2. Do I have an emotional problem (unbalanced, bipolar?)
3. And a lot of smaller interconnected questions and stress that boil and kill me cause it is my curse to hold them in.
Well, with #1... I have no idea. I used to know but God had other plans. I want to some day be a published author, I want to do photography as a hopefully paid hobby, by next year I hope to have a decent savings, and be able to finish school on time. I do want to be married and have a kid or two but that wont be coming for me for a long time I imagine.
#2- I fought over this one for a long time. I might have an issue, but looking back at my life I doubt it. I have always been an emotional person. Growing up I was, for a part, though I believe unintentionally, emotionally abused. I have always been a happy, optimistic person, but especially from 7-10th grade I used that strength as a shield and a mask. While still being able to be myself, I was protected, taking less injury. When I moved away from my hometown I had no expectations on who I was to be. I took my walls down. After graduation and going off to college I became more seriously aware of my need to be looking towards my future, and doing so, the things I suppressed from the past began to surface. Now I am dealing with having to deal with those emotions and realized fears and weaknesses without my wall. I have put my trust in people and shown my heart, having no shield as a back up and it has been wonderful, yet incredibly painful. I am usually either calm/pensive or happy, but I don't want to be just because it is expected of me. I fear people think I am upset when I am often in thought or just solemn and calm. It has been hard, but it has forced me to rely more on God and let Him be my strength. I am no where close to where I need to be, but I am sticking to that road none the less.
And now #3... well that is just something I need to straighten out. I have gotten a lot of that off my chest lately (cant tell you just how wonderful that is) but I think I need to get it all out, or just forget about it cause it is not life or death, it is just the way of things and I need to give it up to God, cause none of it will get resolved until I do.
So much growth to do... and I look forward to every day of it.
Random Act of the Day- decorated my door at school with Kelsey
Current Contemplation- having to measure up to someone by another persons expectations... and bacon... bacon is one of the most amazing foods ever.
Till Another Day!
Monday, October 11, 2010
Medication for Optimism
Oh joy. Of all the delightful things that have happened to me, the topper of my list is I have been blessed to have contracted Mono. Of ALL viruses I could have contracted I get this. I never would have guessed it would have been this. I just thought it was a really bad case of sore throat and some sort of flu virus.
I went into the clinic yesterday and got checked out. They gave me these huge white pills to take to get rid of my tonsillitis.... do you have any idea how hard it is to swallow those things when there is only half an inch of space in the back of your throat? The throat and nasal infection stuff should be gone in less than a week, but I am still contagious to others with mono for another week after that. I feel like walking death.
Everyone has been really supportive. My mom is worried sick (not literally) and wishes she could come down and take care of me, all of the girls here, though cautious (and rightly so) are supportive, caring, and help me to laugh about it.
Though I hate that I am like this, I am most worried about my boyfriend. Before I got really bad we did have a kiss and shared a drink, and before I knew what my diagnosis was he gave me a hug and was super sweet and got me some juice and such to help me get better. He is a really healthy person and I am so worried he will... or has gotten the virus from me. I would feel so incredibly awful. ... lol, but (optimism kicking in) if he does end up getting it, at least I can take care of him with out worrying that I will get it. Not like I can catch it again :P
Another.... semi-good thing about this is that I get to sleep in, don't have to got to work, and I don't have to go to class.... though on the other hand I hope this doesn't jeopardize my employment or lower my grades in class. But for all of that, Everyone says I will be exhausted for while and should rest for another week or so. Though I definitely will, I honestly don't feel too bad aside from a headache and my tonsillitis, and feeling abnormally weak.
Well, God must have something good meant for this whole icky situation.
Random Act of the Day- Threatened to lick Josh Loughlins silverware if he pounded on the stairwell door one more time.
Current Contemplation- A speedy recovery
Till Another Day!
I went into the clinic yesterday and got checked out. They gave me these huge white pills to take to get rid of my tonsillitis.... do you have any idea how hard it is to swallow those things when there is only half an inch of space in the back of your throat? The throat and nasal infection stuff should be gone in less than a week, but I am still contagious to others with mono for another week after that. I feel like walking death.
Everyone has been really supportive. My mom is worried sick (not literally) and wishes she could come down and take care of me, all of the girls here, though cautious (and rightly so) are supportive, caring, and help me to laugh about it.
Though I hate that I am like this, I am most worried about my boyfriend. Before I got really bad we did have a kiss and shared a drink, and before I knew what my diagnosis was he gave me a hug and was super sweet and got me some juice and such to help me get better. He is a really healthy person and I am so worried he will... or has gotten the virus from me. I would feel so incredibly awful. ... lol, but (optimism kicking in) if he does end up getting it, at least I can take care of him with out worrying that I will get it. Not like I can catch it again :P
Another.... semi-good thing about this is that I get to sleep in, don't have to got to work, and I don't have to go to class.... though on the other hand I hope this doesn't jeopardize my employment or lower my grades in class. But for all of that, Everyone says I will be exhausted for while and should rest for another week or so. Though I definitely will, I honestly don't feel too bad aside from a headache and my tonsillitis, and feeling abnormally weak.
Well, God must have something good meant for this whole icky situation.
Random Act of the Day- Threatened to lick Josh Loughlins silverware if he pounded on the stairwell door one more time.
Current Contemplation- A speedy recovery
Till Another Day!
Saturday, August 28, 2010
First Week of School Past....
So it has been a while... basically i love my new job. Working at Famous Footwear is great and is a good place to get me started with decent income. lol.
Hmm.... What else...
School has started. Nothing profound. Gonna be a difficult semester but I really like my classes and no independent classes for me :D
It has been a bit of a struggle to continuously stay in the Word every day but I am doing my best not to let a single day pass without it. I know better. I really hate how it is.. "difficult" to stay in my Bible. You would think that when you love so much and have devoted your life to that Love, the desire and need to be in it every day would be so great that the thought of "forgetting" to read my Bible wouldn't even be there. Humans tend to be bad at that in general, but seriously? Your first Love, God, King SHOULD be our number one priority and thought!
Random Act of The Day: .... today has gone without that pleasure.
Current Contemplation: God's patience with us
Till another day!
Friday, July 02, 2010
Improvments
Well, besides my lame title, things have been great!
I finally got a job. Famous Footwear hired me and I should be starting in a week or so. My car has been working fairly well, aside from the occasional stalling and shut off at stop lights.
I am hoping to do a series of photo shoots sometime soon. I am wanting to do two women and a man but we will see which of my friends are willing to dress up and be dragged around town for an afternoon. ;D I am hoping to get some experience, improve my technique and get some word out there. Also, I filled up the last pages of my water painting pad. .... suck. oh well, on to my sketch book :P
Random Act of the Day: Gave fifty cents to a guy short of change who had come into Kum&Go in a white bath robe.
Current Contemplation: How the heck I am going to draw a decent dragon in the background of my current pencil drawing undertaking.
Till another day!
I finally got a job. Famous Footwear hired me and I should be starting in a week or so. My car has been working fairly well, aside from the occasional stalling and shut off at stop lights.
I am hoping to do a series of photo shoots sometime soon. I am wanting to do two women and a man but we will see which of my friends are willing to dress up and be dragged around town for an afternoon. ;D I am hoping to get some experience, improve my technique and get some word out there. Also, I filled up the last pages of my water painting pad. .... suck. oh well, on to my sketch book :P
Random Act of the Day: Gave fifty cents to a guy short of change who had come into Kum&Go in a white bath robe.
Current Contemplation: How the heck I am going to draw a decent dragon in the background of my current pencil drawing undertaking.
Till another day!
Wednesday, June 09, 2010
An A
Greetings humans!
... now that I have that out of my system...
So this past week has been very interesting.
Last Thursday the car I was borrowing from a friend died.. on the street.. in rush hour. Yeah... I had just left Auto Zone from getting coolant (since the car ate it all up!) and not a block away at a red light i suddenly saw grey smoke billowing out of the back of the car. I turned the car off and let it sit for the red light but when I went to restart it, it didn't even turn over. Yeah, sucked. ... What really got me though, was that only one person pulled over to see if I needed help. You go society, I still have faith in you *choke*.
Yesterday (Tuesday) I rode the Greyhound bus up to Sioux Falls to get my first car ever from my family who was driving through. It is beautiful! A 1995 Buick LeSabre. That car knows where it's at. lol, I am so happy, it is still kind of a shock to walk outside and see my own car. :P
Random Act of The Day: No idea.
Current Contemplation: the effort in kindness... and about pickles
... now that I have that out of my system...
So this past week has been very interesting.
Last Thursday the car I was borrowing from a friend died.. on the street.. in rush hour. Yeah... I had just left Auto Zone from getting coolant (since the car ate it all up!) and not a block away at a red light i suddenly saw grey smoke billowing out of the back of the car. I turned the car off and let it sit for the red light but when I went to restart it, it didn't even turn over. Yeah, sucked. ... What really got me though, was that only one person pulled over to see if I needed help. You go society, I still have faith in you *choke*.
Yesterday (Tuesday) I rode the Greyhound bus up to Sioux Falls to get my first car ever from my family who was driving through. It is beautiful! A 1995 Buick LeSabre. That car knows where it's at. lol, I am so happy, it is still kind of a shock to walk outside and see my own car. :P
Random Act of The Day: No idea.
Current Contemplation: the effort in kindness... and about pickles
Friday, May 21, 2010
It's Something Like That...
So... earlier this week my roomate and I made a "Get A Life" list. So far I have been active upon it, but I am getting more distraught over my current unemployment. I wont... cant... fear to lose hope that my life will go somewhere. I know that it is just the current time of my life that I am going through, but it sucks. I am not quite good enough in my talents to really make it anywhere(though my painting is improving). Almost none of my dreams seem to have potential of coming true, and I just feel.... stranded. .... Though, I know once I get my first car ever (figure that one out) in three weeks and get a job somewhere in that time, things will start looking up. I want to get my excitement for life back, but I have to work to keep my optimism up.... I probably need to work on that issue... I hope it's not turning into a lack of faith.. oh Lord help me. I dont think it is, but my negative mood needs to stop it. *angry face at self*
Do dreams really ever come true? .. Yes and no. I think that they can and they can't but whether or not they do God is in control and has better things for us than what we could imagine.
Gads... I need someone to encourage me.... *cough* I hate feeling like I have to be happy and hopeful and optimistic all the time.
Random act of the day: watched the sunset by myself on the shore of a lake drinking Arizona Sweet Tea
Current Contemplation: The effort of being sweet
Till another (more joyful) Day!
Do dreams really ever come true? .. Yes and no. I think that they can and they can't but whether or not they do God is in control and has better things for us than what we could imagine.
Gads... I need someone to encourage me.... *cough* I hate feeling like I have to be happy and hopeful and optimistic all the time.
Random act of the day: watched the sunset by myself on the shore of a lake drinking Arizona Sweet Tea
Current Contemplation: The effort of being sweet
Till another (more joyful) Day!
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Potential
I am a week into my summer and I have to say I am disappointed with myself.
I have lived in Omaha two years and I will be staying in town for the summer but I feel my motivation going to pot. I really need to get out and do something. This summer is wide open with potential! There is no motivation in my friend group. Apathy is slowly contagious.
Cure the disease!!!
Random Act of the Day: Played the new COD:MW2 maps
Current Contemplation: The little things that matter
Till another day!
I have lived in Omaha two years and I will be staying in town for the summer but I feel my motivation going to pot. I really need to get out and do something. This summer is wide open with potential! There is no motivation in my friend group. Apathy is slowly contagious.
Cure the disease!!!
Random Act of the Day: Played the new COD:MW2 maps
Current Contemplation: The little things that matter
Till another day!
Saturday, May 08, 2010
The Catalyst
Often people are encouraged to look back on their life, to reflect on the decisions they have made.
Well, today was one of those days for me. It is the one year mark of my relationship with my first boyfriend... one of the best years of my life. After spending my afternoon with him I started thinking back on my life. I never dated before college and it is amazing the change in my life that has happened due to being in a relationship. Thinking back farther I was thinking of the pivotal decisions I have made in my life... besides deciding to follow God's call and come to NCC, and when I accepted Christ, I could think of only one great decision....
When I decided to leave my home, living with my father, and move with my mom to another state. If I had stayed with my Dad, yes, I would have finished HS with 12 varsity letters, been in the countys most prestigious choir, and gone to state for running.. but if i had stayed I probably would have turned into more of a rebel, I probably would have dated a friend or two before graduation, and there is a 50% chance in my mind of me messing up with one of them out of rebellion against my father, and would have struggled greatly in my walk with God.... Another scenario of this is I would have probably lived with my Dad for a semester or two my junior year, then would have gone to live with my mom after that. I wouldn't have ever known of my current college, I wouldn't have had the wonderful Christian friends that have greatly impacted my life, and I wouldn't be dating such a wonderful man of God.
But I did leave what was my "home" halfway through HS to live with my mom. It was the hardest, and one of the most pivotal and best decisions I have ever made. I was living with my mom (who has been my greatest mentor in my life, as a mother, and spiritual guide), my little brother, and my Grandfather (one of my main positive male role-models of my childhood). I was able to start in a new school, given the freedom to be involved in the activities of my choosing, I was held to a standard of great expectations, given trust in my new freedom that I did not abuse. Looking back, I realize how blessed I am that I have such a supportive mother, such a wonderful family, and the opportunity to learn and not make the mistakes I saw so many of my friends making. That one decision of breaking my fathers heart in my moving, I believe, was a catalyst, a beginning of fully letting God move drastically in my life and in his. I am blessed by the hardship, and yet blessed that I was spared from more of it.
What was your catalyst?
Random Act of the Day- played tag with the guy's new dog
Current Contemplation- pistachios
Till Another Day!
Well, today was one of those days for me. It is the one year mark of my relationship with my first boyfriend... one of the best years of my life. After spending my afternoon with him I started thinking back on my life. I never dated before college and it is amazing the change in my life that has happened due to being in a relationship. Thinking back farther I was thinking of the pivotal decisions I have made in my life... besides deciding to follow God's call and come to NCC, and when I accepted Christ, I could think of only one great decision....
When I decided to leave my home, living with my father, and move with my mom to another state. If I had stayed with my Dad, yes, I would have finished HS with 12 varsity letters, been in the countys most prestigious choir, and gone to state for running.. but if i had stayed I probably would have turned into more of a rebel, I probably would have dated a friend or two before graduation, and there is a 50% chance in my mind of me messing up with one of them out of rebellion against my father, and would have struggled greatly in my walk with God.... Another scenario of this is I would have probably lived with my Dad for a semester or two my junior year, then would have gone to live with my mom after that. I wouldn't have ever known of my current college, I wouldn't have had the wonderful Christian friends that have greatly impacted my life, and I wouldn't be dating such a wonderful man of God.
But I did leave what was my "home" halfway through HS to live with my mom. It was the hardest, and one of the most pivotal and best decisions I have ever made. I was living with my mom (who has been my greatest mentor in my life, as a mother, and spiritual guide), my little brother, and my Grandfather (one of my main positive male role-models of my childhood). I was able to start in a new school, given the freedom to be involved in the activities of my choosing, I was held to a standard of great expectations, given trust in my new freedom that I did not abuse. Looking back, I realize how blessed I am that I have such a supportive mother, such a wonderful family, and the opportunity to learn and not make the mistakes I saw so many of my friends making. That one decision of breaking my fathers heart in my moving, I believe, was a catalyst, a beginning of fully letting God move drastically in my life and in his. I am blessed by the hardship, and yet blessed that I was spared from more of it.
What was your catalyst?
Random Act of the Day- played tag with the guy's new dog
Current Contemplation- pistachios
Till Another Day!
Monday, April 19, 2010
Only Three More Weeks of School Left!!!
So the zoo was AWESOME. I hadn't been to one since... the 7th grade I think.... gosh I'm old....
Anyways, yes, it rocked. Didn't get to see the whole thing but I can go again. Only like a 20 min drive away.
The end of the school year is coming up SUPER fast. I am excited for it. Can't wait to get out of here, start my job, and have no homework! Then again, I have so much homework to do. I got a bunch done today, but still got a lot.
I could babble on about my boring, homework filled afternoon but I wont suffer you anymore.
Random Act of the Day: ran up and down the hallway in my costume for my first person expository sermon.
Current Contemplation: the giving of affection
Till Another Day!
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Well then....
Going to the Zoo in town for the first time this weekend. Not with the person I originally wished to take me, but going with friends to prevent the problem of the third wheel is fine with me :)
I think my favorite class this semester is Intro. to Preaching. I gave a sermon this week on Our plans vs. God's plan, and how we need to have a spiritual game plan. It was my shortest sermon, but I feel it was my best. And it was something I think God has been trying to reassure me of.
Tonight was the end-of-the-year school formal. All in all, it was a really good time. Got myself and my boyfriend slightly lost on the way there but we just missed one turn. More of a scenic detour than lost ;P
Till another day.
I think my favorite class this semester is Intro. to Preaching. I gave a sermon this week on Our plans vs. God's plan, and how we need to have a spiritual game plan. It was my shortest sermon, but I feel it was my best. And it was something I think God has been trying to reassure me of.
Tonight was the end-of-the-year school formal. All in all, it was a really good time. Got myself and my boyfriend slightly lost on the way there but we just missed one turn. More of a scenic detour than lost ;P
Till another day.
Monday, April 12, 2010
Late Nights
Reasons I like to go to bed before 2 in the mornings on school nights:
1. I like sleep
2. I need sleep
3. I need to be up for class in the mornings
4. I need to be alert for class in the mornings
5. So that the things I suppress till the next day wont hit me when I am trying to do homework
6. Chances for anything good happening drop after 2 in the morning on a school night. (or for me, after midnight)
Slept through my alarm this morning.... first Sunday I have done that since.... when I was sick over a year ago I think. The good thing was I didn't have a sermon for Intro. to Preaching tomorrow until I was reading through old church bulletin sermon notes I kept. Amazing how God once again reminds me how He is in control. :)
Till Another Day!
1. I like sleep
2. I need sleep
3. I need to be up for class in the mornings
4. I need to be alert for class in the mornings
5. So that the things I suppress till the next day wont hit me when I am trying to do homework
6. Chances for anything good happening drop after 2 in the morning on a school night. (or for me, after midnight)
Slept through my alarm this morning.... first Sunday I have done that since.... when I was sick over a year ago I think. The good thing was I didn't have a sermon for Intro. to Preaching tomorrow until I was reading through old church bulletin sermon notes I kept. Amazing how God once again reminds me how He is in control. :)
Till Another Day!
Monday, April 05, 2010
A year later, older, and wiser... hopefully ;)
So... Where to begin?
Life is good, just got back to the school dorms after a much needed Easter Break.
Five more weeks till my sophomore year in college ends and I have learned a few things...
I have learned that-
* it is possible to be a productive procrastinator
*I wake up most mornings thinking "I have to get up and be responsible"
*it is possible for my "burns" on people to be legitimately funny
*there is hope for my ridiculousness
*my books probably will never get published but that shouldn't stop my writing
*I have learned God has something better in store for me than I could ever hope or dream
* and I have learned my worth.
It is amazing how far you can come and how much you can learn in a year, especially when you know that you knew absolutely ZERO about so many things.
I am hoping to keep this blog up... we will see! ;P
Till Another Day!
Life is good, just got back to the school dorms after a much needed Easter Break.
Five more weeks till my sophomore year in college ends and I have learned a few things...
I have learned that-
* it is possible to be a productive procrastinator
*I wake up most mornings thinking "I have to get up and be responsible"
*it is possible for my "burns" on people to be legitimately funny
*there is hope for my ridiculousness
*my books probably will never get published but that shouldn't stop my writing
*I have learned God has something better in store for me than I could ever hope or dream
* and I have learned my worth.
It is amazing how far you can come and how much you can learn in a year, especially when you know that you knew absolutely ZERO about so many things.
I am hoping to keep this blog up... we will see! ;P
Till Another Day!
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Been a while
Well! Its been a while since ive been on! Im not sure what to write, things are so crazy and from writing homework to scholarship applications to my book my fingers get pretty tuckered out.
my book is going good. Right now i am on teh 12th chapter of my second one. Pretty exciting!
Well not much new or exciting i guess.
my book is going good. Right now i am on teh 12th chapter of my second one. Pretty exciting!
Well not much new or exciting i guess.
Sunday, August 26, 2007
Its been a while
Its been a while since I've written.
I was supprised, I sang at an art gallery the other evening and I was only nervous before the evening started.
A whole awesome summer has come and gone and school has begun once more. In a way I am glad summer is over so that i never hadn a chance to be booring, but I miss teh swimming and biking and exploring while typing up my Accounting 1 assignment.
A year has passed since I left my Dad to live with my Mom and brother and tho I had a moment where I dreaded him writing and mentioning it, I dont regret the choice a bit. It actually was one of the best chices I have made so far for finnishing my high school here has opened so many doors for me that would never have exhisted in my old town.
Wow, It has been a while. Last time I wrote it was my birthday. Now I am a few months away from being able to vote and I have learned so much since then. Yes I am nine months older but I also am blessed with being a camp team leader and dorm mom, a bit more experience wiht being an Aunt, I have learned new trails, improved my aim in archery and have gotten my first US passport, etc, etc. It is so true when one says that you learn something new every day.
I am so glad for the honesty of true friends. my best friend confronted me when i was having a bad day and I confessed that i had not been reading my bible as I should have. Since then ive been doing my devotionals and havent had a bad day yet.
How has your summer gone? I hope it was as good as myne and I hope that this fall brings more lessons and fun times!
God bless,
Sarah
I was supprised, I sang at an art gallery the other evening and I was only nervous before the evening started.
A whole awesome summer has come and gone and school has begun once more. In a way I am glad summer is over so that i never hadn a chance to be booring, but I miss teh swimming and biking and exploring while typing up my Accounting 1 assignment.
A year has passed since I left my Dad to live with my Mom and brother and tho I had a moment where I dreaded him writing and mentioning it, I dont regret the choice a bit. It actually was one of the best chices I have made so far for finnishing my high school here has opened so many doors for me that would never have exhisted in my old town.
Wow, It has been a while. Last time I wrote it was my birthday. Now I am a few months away from being able to vote and I have learned so much since then. Yes I am nine months older but I also am blessed with being a camp team leader and dorm mom, a bit more experience wiht being an Aunt, I have learned new trails, improved my aim in archery and have gotten my first US passport, etc, etc. It is so true when one says that you learn something new every day.
I am so glad for the honesty of true friends. my best friend confronted me when i was having a bad day and I confessed that i had not been reading my bible as I should have. Since then ive been doing my devotionals and havent had a bad day yet.
How has your summer gone? I hope it was as good as myne and I hope that this fall brings more lessons and fun times!
God bless,
Sarah
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Its mah Birthday!
I had a awesome time in Aberdeen!
It was good to see everyone and spend time with my dad.
And now im 17 years old!
One day older than yesterday!
One day younger than tomorow....
I had a good day today
My chior .... kinda sang Happy Birthday to me.....
Its snowing!
And cold!
Kayla broke her arm!
I get a hair cut on Saturday!
i gotta go,
im pushin my cpu time;-)
It was good to see everyone and spend time with my dad.
And now im 17 years old!
One day older than yesterday!
One day younger than tomorow....
I had a good day today
My chior .... kinda sang Happy Birthday to me.....
Its snowing!
And cold!
Kayla broke her arm!
I get a hair cut on Saturday!
i gotta go,
im pushin my cpu time;-)
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
SO extitied!
SOO!!!
My girls are going to state
My Jessica got her cpu back;-)
I get to go watch my girls run state XC
I get to go visit Aberdeen agian...soon *evil grin*
I get to go to Alabama for Christmas
I get to go learn how to snowboard some time this winter (finaly! like i havent waited long enought for that. lol)
I might get to go to the All State Chior Festival
I might...well...maybe if things get worked out, get to spend Thanksgiving with my Dad,
and....yeah!
lol. Had a good day except found out that I have the worst GPA i have ever had. oh well, itl go up...hopefuly! lol
My girls are going to state
My Jessica got her cpu back;-)
I get to go watch my girls run state XC
I get to go visit Aberdeen agian...soon *evil grin*
I get to go to Alabama for Christmas
I get to go learn how to snowboard some time this winter (finaly! like i havent waited long enought for that. lol)
I might get to go to the All State Chior Festival
I might...well...maybe if things get worked out, get to spend Thanksgiving with my Dad,
and....yeah!
lol. Had a good day except found out that I have the worst GPA i have ever had. oh well, itl go up...hopefuly! lol
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