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Greetings humans!
... now that I have that out of my system...
So this past week has been very interesting.
Last Thursday the car I was borrowing from a friend died.. on the street.. in rush hour. Yeah... I had just left Auto Zone from getting coolant (since the car ate it all up!) and not a block away at a red light i suddenly saw grey smoke billowing out of the back of the car. I turned the car off and let it sit for the red light but when I went to restart it, it didn't even turn over. Yeah, sucked. ... What really got me though, was that only one person pulled over to see if I needed help. You go society, I still have faith in you *choke*.
Yesterday (Tuesday) I rode the Greyhound bus up to Sioux Falls to get my first car ever from my family who was driving through. It is beautiful! A 1995 Buick LeSabre. That car knows where it's at. lol, I am so happy, it is still kind of a shock to walk outside and see my own car. :P

Random Act of The Day: No idea.
Current Contemplation: the effort in kindness... and about pickles

It's Something Like That...

So... earlier this week my roomate and I made a "Get A Life" list. So far I have been active upon it, but I am getting more distraught over my current unemployment. I wont... cant... fear to lose hope that my life will go somewhere. I know that it is just the current time of my life that I am going through, but it sucks. I am not quite good enough in my talents to really make it anywhere(though my painting is improving). Almost none of my dreams seem to have potential of coming true, and I just feel.... stranded. .... Though, I know once I get my first car ever (figure that one out) in three weeks and get a job somewhere in that time, things will start looking up. I want to get my excitement for life back, but I have to work to keep my optimism up.... I probably need to work on that issue... I hope it's not turning into a lack of faith.. oh Lord help me. I dont think it is, but my negative mood needs to stop it. *angry face at self*
Do dreams really ever come true? .. Yes and no. I think that they can and they can't but whether or not they do God is in control and has better things for us than what we could imagine.
Gads... I need someone to encourage me.... *cough* I hate feeling like I have to be happy and hopeful and optimistic all the time.

Random act of the day: watched the sunset by myself on the shore of a lake drinking Arizona Sweet Tea
Current Contemplation: The effort of being sweet

Till another (more joyful) Day!

Potential

I am a week into my summer and I have to say I am disappointed with myself.
I have lived in Omaha two years and I will be staying in town for the summer but I feel my motivation going to pot. I really need to get out and do something. This summer is wide open with potential! There is no motivation in my friend group. Apathy is slowly contagious.
Cure the disease!!!

Random Act of the Day: Played the new COD:MW2 maps
Current Contemplation: The little things that matter

Till another day!

The Catalyst

Often people are encouraged to look back on their life, to reflect on the decisions they have made.
Well, today was one of those days for me. It is the one year mark of my relationship with my first boyfriend... one of the best years of my life. After spending my afternoon with him I started thinking back on my life. I never dated before college and it is amazing the change in my life that has happened due to being in a relationship. Thinking back farther I was thinking of the pivotal decisions I have made in my life... besides deciding to follow God's call and come to NCC, and when I accepted Christ, I could think of only one great decision....
When I decided to leave my home, living with my father, and move with my mom to another state. If I had stayed with my Dad, yes, I would have finished HS with 12 varsity letters, been in the countys most prestigious choir, and gone to state for running.. but if i had stayed I probably would have turned into more of a rebel, I probably would have dated a friend or two before graduation, and there is a 50% chance in my mind of me messing up with one of them out of rebellion against my father, and would have struggled greatly in my walk with God.... Another scenario of this is I would have probably lived with my Dad for a semester or two my junior year, then would have gone to live with my mom after that. I wouldn't have ever known of my current college, I wouldn't have had the wonderful Christian friends that have greatly impacted my life, and I wouldn't be dating such a wonderful man of God.
But I did leave what was my "home" halfway through HS to live with my mom. It was the hardest, and one of the most pivotal and best decisions I have ever made. I was living with my mom (who has been my greatest mentor in my life, as a mother, and spiritual guide), my little brother, and my Grandfather (one of my main positive male role-models of my childhood). I was able to start in a new school, given the freedom to be involved in the activities of my choosing, I was held to a standard of great expectations, given trust in my new freedom that I did not abuse. Looking back, I realize how blessed I am that I have such a supportive mother, such a wonderful family, and the opportunity to learn and not make the mistakes I saw so many of my friends making. That one decision of breaking my fathers heart in my moving, I believe, was a catalyst, a beginning of fully letting God move drastically in my life and in his. I am blessed by the hardship, and yet blessed that I was spared from more of it.
What was your catalyst?

Random Act of the Day- played tag with the guy's new dog
Current Contemplation- pistachios


Till Another Day!

Only Three More Weeks of School Left!!!

So the zoo was AWESOME. I hadn't been to one since... the 7th grade I think.... gosh I'm old....
Anyways, yes, it rocked. Didn't get to see the whole thing but I can go again. Only like a 20 min drive away.
The end of the school year is coming up SUPER fast. I am excited for it. Can't wait to get out of here, start my job, and have no homework! Then again, I have so much homework to do. I got a bunch done today, but still got a lot.
I could babble on about my boring, homework filled afternoon but I wont suffer you anymore.

Random Act of the Day: ran up and down the hallway in my costume for my first person expository sermon.
Current Contemplation: the giving of affection

Till Another Day!

Well then....

Going to the Zoo in town for the first time this weekend. Not with the person I originally wished to take me, but going with friends to prevent the problem of the third wheel is fine with me :)

I think my favorite class this semester is Intro. to Preaching. I gave a sermon this week on Our plans vs. God's plan, and how we need to have a spiritual game plan. It was my shortest sermon, but I feel it was my best. And it was something I think God has been trying to reassure me of.

Tonight was the end-of-the-year school formal. All in all, it was a really good time. Got myself and my boyfriend slightly lost on the way there but we just missed one turn. More of a scenic detour than lost ;P


Till another day.

Late Nights

Reasons I like to go to bed before 2 in the mornings on school nights:

1. I like sleep
2. I need sleep
3. I need to be up for class in the mornings
4. I need to be alert for class in the mornings
5. So that the things I suppress till the next day wont hit me when I am trying to do homework
6. Chances for anything good happening drop after 2 in the morning on a school night. (or for me, after midnight)

Slept through my alarm this morning.... first Sunday I have done that since.... when I was sick over a year ago I think. The good thing was I didn't have a sermon for Intro. to Preaching tomorrow until I was reading through old church bulletin sermon notes I kept. Amazing how God once again reminds me how He is in control. :)

Till Another Day!

A year later, older, and wiser... hopefully ;)

So... Where to begin?
Life is good, just got back to the school dorms after a much needed Easter Break.

Five more weeks till my sophomore year in college ends and I have learned a few things...

I have learned that-
* it is possible to be a productive procrastinator
*I wake up most mornings thinking "I have to get up and be responsible"
*it is possible for my "burns" on people to be legitimately funny
*there is hope for my ridiculousness
*my books probably will never get published but that shouldn't stop my writing
*I have learned God has something better in store for me than I could ever hope or dream
* and I have learned my worth.

It is amazing how far you can come and how much you can learn in a year, especially when you know that you knew absolutely ZERO about so many things.

I am hoping to keep this blog up... we will see! ;P

Till Another Day!

Been a while

Well! Its been a while since ive been on! Im not sure what to write, things are so crazy and from writing homework to scholarship applications to my book my fingers get pretty tuckered out.
my book is going good. Right now i am on teh 12th chapter of my second one. Pretty exciting!
Well not much new or exciting i guess.

Its been a while

Its been a while since I've written.

I was supprised, I sang at an art gallery the other evening and I was only nervous before the evening started.

A whole awesome summer has come and gone and school has begun once more. In a way I am glad summer is over so that i never hadn a chance to be booring, but I miss teh swimming and biking and exploring while typing up my Accounting 1 assignment.

A year has passed since I left my Dad to live with my Mom and brother and tho I had a moment where I dreaded him writing and mentioning it, I dont regret the choice a bit. It actually was one of the best chices I have made so far for finnishing my high school here has opened so many doors for me that would never have exhisted in my old town.

Wow, It has been a while. Last time I wrote it was my birthday. Now I am a few months away from being able to vote and I have learned so much since then. Yes I am nine months older but I also am blessed with being a camp team leader and dorm mom, a bit more experience wiht being an Aunt, I have learned new trails, improved my aim in archery and have gotten my first US passport, etc, etc. It is so true when one says that you learn something new every day.

I am so glad for the honesty of true friends. my best friend confronted me when i was having a bad day and I confessed that i had not been reading my bible as I should have. Since then ive been doing my devotionals and havent had a bad day yet.

How has your summer gone? I hope it was as good as myne and I hope that this fall brings more lessons and fun times!

God bless,
Sarah

Its mah Birthday!

I had a awesome time in Aberdeen!
It was good to see everyone and spend time with my dad.
And now im 17 years old!
One day older than yesterday!
One day younger than tomorow....
I had a good day today
My chior .... kinda sang Happy Birthday to me.....
Its snowing!
And cold!
Kayla broke her arm!
I get a hair cut on Saturday!
i gotta go,
im pushin my cpu time;-)

SO extitied!

SOO!!!
My girls are going to state
My Jessica got her cpu back;-)
I get to go watch my girls run state XC
I get to go visit Aberdeen agian...soon *evil grin*
I get to go to Alabama for Christmas
I get to go learn how to snowboard some time this winter (finaly! like i havent waited long enought for that. lol)
I might get to go to the All State Chior Festival
I might...well...maybe if things get worked out, get to spend Thanksgiving with my Dad,
and....yeah!
lol. Had a good day except found out that I have the worst GPA i have ever had. oh well, itl go up...hopefuly! lol

Pitts with the team!

Well, I havent writtenin a long time!

I got to got to Aberdeen for a day and a half to get my braces off. I had moved to Montana since my parents are getting divorced. I arrive in Abrdn just in tim eot go to the Pitts with my old XC team. It was so much fun. Hut my rear reall ybad goin down the 250 slide though. It was a bladt. My friends threw a party at the bowling alley for me. It was so good to see them and we had a heap of fun. I then spent the night at my girl Jessicas house. We were up late talking and munchin on leftover pizza. I got to go to AHS for about half an hour that morning adn say hi to my other friends there. I got to see my old chior teacher and old english teacher and my coaches, yeha, it was great. I THEN went to get my braces off! It is so nice to finaly be able to eat without having to brush for fifteen minto get food out of metal brackets. I then spent the rest of the day with my dad. It was a good tim and I am at peace. (my dad and i did not part on exactly the best of terms) I had a wonderful time and I also got to let my mom lete me drive throught he I-5 corridor! IT was fun. I cant wati to go back and visit. I love my friends and my dad and miss them all alot. What a great weekend!

SO, I also went to my new schools homecoming dance. It was not formal bu tdreadfuly casual. IT was fun but it wasnt what i had expected...though i dont know what i was expecting.....lol. Not my friends are trying ot get me to go to prom. No way Jose! (I reall hope i dont break and go.) Im not goin. lol.
Well....yeah....those are the big things kinda. Cant wait to go snowboarding this winter.....Got a sweet snowboarding winter coat.....my new room is done.....mom got a job a month or so back, yeah. so toodles till i write again!

Paint! And other parts of life~

My room rocks. Nuthen less. It so cool. Ill post pics when its entirely done. (im so excited!!!!!!!) *deep breath.*
It was so nice not to have school on Friday. The only bad thin about this weekend was when i went to Shop ko with my mom and cousin. Im so fet up with the fashion industry! No body but prep posers wear thos clothes! And their the only ones who can really fit in 'em! I ditched the clothes section and got myself a green sports watch instead.
I am not excited bout goin to school. The girls are cool but those guys....?><:"}{.... need a life (why do i always endup understating the situation? lol. i wonder.) oh well! If i report i have a broken wrist bone youll know there is a guy from my school in a hospital in a body cast;-) haha waht a thought.
I am so tired. Kayla stayed the night and we painted for like 4-5 hours after we got home from church.
I better go. Long day tomorow.
OH NO! I didnt get the fabric for my art class!!! Snap. ttyl!

He gads!

Man! Boys are so onery! Its like hardwired into them to bugg you an drive you bonkers. Gosh, just cause i have a bad memory of names, i am gullible sometimes and i am easy to frizzle dosnt mean its fun to pic on me...dose it? ;-)

Sometimes

Sometimes I get confused, frustrated at the way things are or how they turn out. Difficult times in life seem to block and even crush me. I begin to get feelings of doubt of who i am, what might have hapened differantly if I had done something. I ask if what hapend was my fault, did i spurr on the inevitible? It is then I realize that I am wrong. I did nothing wrong. Others make choices, but they do not realized that the aftermath is caused by them and that the consequenses affect everyone in their life and people beyond their understanding. THose affected have to make choices for the best and that cant be changed. Right now those chioces hurt and stab me, making me wonder if i did the right thing. I stop now and shake the doubts from my mind, denying Satan the mike in my mind and heart and fully give it over to Jesus. The next year and longer will be hard but I know i made the right choice, though painful beyond what i can say. He gave and gives me strength to go on and face the new things that lay before me. Changes are unavoidable but i will look for ward to them instead of dreading them, beliving that I have the best guide and comforter at my side. All fear and doubt cast aside and pacing faster around the next corner of life that appears ahead of me.

First day....

So!... that was the longest school day of my life. Literaly! I got out of school at 3:20!
I ride the buss to school. Its ok since the girls on there are really nice. There is this awesome kindergardener too who we call the cool kid. Hes the only little kid allowed to sit in the back of the buss. lol It was Very weird walkin in the front door to a new school and having everyone stare at me when I walk by. Totaly creepy. Im like one of the only new kids there.
1st. period- English: Didnt go. The whole school went to an assembly andthe principle introduced all the teachers.
2nd. period- Study hall: There was only me and two special edd kids who were usin gthe room. I was so lonely for everyone that i almost cried. So i wrote down about 41 of my friends names on my notebook along with AHS in big bold print. I felt so patheticly alone... I even kinda missed Up's.
3rd. period- Spanish one in a Spanish three class: There are only five other girls besides me in there. Since i'm in the class i get to go on the trip to a forign country that speaks spanish. The teacher is cool. No food besides lunch is allowed in the school but she says if we bring it in before school and stash it in her back cubbord its perfectly fine with her.
4th. period- Algebra II: Didnt go. There was another assembly for allthe high schoolers and we just read over the hand book. I kept nodding off and almost tumbled down the bleachers. lol. That would have been a great first impression on the school. Only new kid falls asleep and tumbles down the bleachers onto gyum floor durring the principles speach infront of the whole high school.
5th. period- Art I: I cant wait to get started. The teacher is nice but her hair is thining really bad. I kept nodding off in that class too. Im excited to get started on our projects and portfolios.
6th. period- Chior: All i can say is that i am appaled and disapointed. We sand kindergarden songs to warm up. Almost no one takes the class seriously. It is more like a fun class. It makes me sick. The class could barely sing together and half of them were off key.
7th. period- Journalism: A very serious and studious class. I made a good impression on the teacher i guess since she had me pass out papers and i was the first person to get an assignment. I feel like a teacher pet but dont really like it. I cant wait till we get in to our essays though. The class also dose the newspaper for the school and the yearbook.
All i can say is this will be an interesting year and i reall miss AHS!

Tomorow!

Aug! I cant belive that I start school tomorow! Well I can belive it but its come so fast! I am at a brand new school with like 1/10 the kids at my old school, and I have to ride the buss to school and I dont know any one and ... Im really nervous! Alot of people have told me ill fit right in and make friends fast (course! there are like only 130 kids in the high school!) I dont know what to expect. Im kinda excited for this new adventure, but im really nervous too. What can tomorow bring me? We will see wont we?;-)

The best day of my summer

I went to Helena yesterday to visit a friend an it was such a AWESOME day!
I had such a blast and it really was a great time. It is the highlight of my summer and I cant wait to go visit again. I went hiking and cliff diving and did ALOT of swimming. I just wishi had jumped of that one cliff, but i thought about it once to many so i chickened out. Oh well. It was great so ill try again if i do go again. I wont say it agin ;-) so ill just sign out here.~

In All Things

At times the world seems to cave in and almost colapse on you. It is in times like these that we must deny the strong self-will inside of ourselfs to try and fix things on our terms, our way. We need to give up ourselfs and put our trust and hope in the Lord. If we would do that on his time instead of our own we migh tspare ourselfs some of the sorrow and agony. He dose not promise the load and the road to be easy, but he dose promise to always be there for us through it all. In all things he is there for us. Knowing that he is there helping us makes the going eaiser. It is better to carry the yoke of Christ than the yoke of our own sin and demise. In all things we must put our hope and trust in Christ.