The Thrilling, Epic, Adventurous Life of Me

Hello again.
What a week! What a busy, relaxing, lonely, crazy week. It has actually been quite good . . . taking into account that I had no school Monday.
After my long day of hanging out with people, getting an oil change for my poor car (who I have decided looks more like an old man than an old lady), and spending three decent, but slightly boring hours in my Popular Fiction class, I ended it with getting McDonalds coffee with a friend. Taking one step back, my PF class didn't get to meet in our designated room in the new building. I was so looking forward to it. I wanted to watch the sunset through the big side window instead of being in a cold, windowless basement. (but back to the end of my day)

We were driving back to the school and we started talking about video games cause another of our friends had brought up a role playing game a few hours earlier, and I have to honestly say that I am . . . refreshed, by my thoughts (cause they are not bitter or negative) on the subject we discussed, and it helped me put into words the current revelation I have had for myself, both spiritually and as a person.
I think back to high school when I had more ambitious dreams for my life. I remember wanting to go to Romania, help orphans and stop injustice, wanting to go to Sudan and work building schools and protect people. Even into college I would daydream about getting captured then saving people and killing the bad guys, dieing for a just cause, and righting the wrongs of injustice. It is a nice though, but, just being honest, those things would and will never happen. I am also a BIG into fantasy books and movies. How adventurous to explore an unknown world, battle evil creatures, epically fight, bleed, and win victory's, and journey to perilous lands where the fate of it all rests in your humble, but strong and willing hands. (that second part I still day dream about :) ) But as I read more books, played more games, watched more movies, and dove further into my own passion for writing my fantasy novels, the more I realized that my escapism and dissatisfaction of this world was, though seemingly understandable, a foolish quest for my own fulfillment of a life I thought I would never have.
LIES!
I have learned that there is no greater quest, adventure, and challenge than the life I am living. I battle against sin every day with the best ally on my side. I am given the opportunity to love more than I might think humanly possible, to see the challenges in my life and overcome them. No, they are not dragons, beasts, or goblins, but they are there and many of them are eternal.
What is living epically, and adventurously? Pulling over on the road to see if the lady with her flashers on needs help and make sure she is ok, to offer the exhausted, hard working mother of two energetic boys free babysitting so she can get at least one evening a week to herself while her husband is fighting overseas, to catch a shopper who is about to leave the store exasperated and give her my full attention to help her find what she needs, just to find out in conversation with her that she has been having a horrible week and me helping her made her day.
Living epically is to love faithfully, affectionately, unconditionally someone for your whole life. It is to know whole heartedly, that if a bullet or car came towards them, you would take it. It is to do the little things in life with your friends and family, because they are the memories that matter most, and the building blocks to relationships that last for a lifetime. It is listening when the person speaking isnt your first choice in company, a kiss in the rain or watching a sunset hand-in-hand in silence cause you know what the other is thinking, being the one person to step forward to help some one who has fallen, or stopping on a dusty back road to help a lost lady find where she is wanting to go.
What are some aspects to our favorite epic stories that we crave? Struggle, pain, sacrifice, change, quests, passion, conquering, and that fight you knew was coming but feared at the same time. Are we so blind to not see these in our own lives? I fear rejection, failure, and loss, but I know that if I don't take that step to live and be more of how God intended, am I not defeating my purpose? My books, especially, have been very helpful in making me see this. My characters, a lot of the time, were what I wish I could be, do what I wish I could do, but now I see them as a reflection of what I am and what I strive to become. I want to fight, love, have faithful friends, and be pursued, but it is a two way street and if I want that, I need to give that with no reservations.
I will let my heart break if it mean that I have loved with all that I have, I will let my hands bleed and feet hurt if it means I have worked hard and done good, I will let my head ache and brow sweat if it means that I have been up for hours doing all of that and then more for those I care most about. I am a work in progress . . . for the entirety of my life, but no journey's lessons are all learned on its first leg :)
That is my current revelation :)

Random Act of The Day: read birthday cards and laughed at them with Molly at Walmart.
Current Contemplation: I want tea . . . I mean REALLY want tea.

Till Another Day!

How

My How To's for the afternoon:
-How to reach a goal: Just do it
-How to eat dark chocolate: Slowly, relishing it's deliciousness
-How to spend a rainy day: Curled up on a couch by a window, reading a good book or watching a good movie.
-How you know they matter most: gut wrenching prayer hidden from the rest of the world
-How to best watch a sunset: Sitting on a log/dock on the shore of a lake surrounded by near-silence.
-How to spend a boring afternoon: Go do something you've been contemplating doing for a while just cause you can.
-How to write: with patience and enthusiasm
-How to learn: through trial, error, observation, and an energy drink
-How to work a job you don't like: by remembering why you are working, and what you are working for.
-How to further enjoy it: see it as an opportunity to brighten others days . . . even the disgruntled old men who come in angryanddontunderstandthatyouworkundersetguidelines.... *exaggerated grumbling*
-How to eat pizza crust: Last
-How to sing in a shower: loud and with much laughing at ones self
-How to pursue your passions: being joyously determined and unrelenting
-How to drive a car: at least the speed limit, windows down, and blaring your favorite song while you and your passengers sing at top of your voices.
-How to dance in a car: make sure it is dark outside so no one can see you, and be sure there is little traffic so you can toss your hair without the fear of wrecking your car.
-How to watch a thrilling or scary movie: With your significant other . . . so that you can hide behind them at the scary parts
-How to paint: however you want to! It will be better than half the stuff in our museums
-How to get in shape: . . .
-How to get in shape without sacrificing all the foods you love: run A LOT
-How to watch a comedian: with a room full of friends
-How to get something across the room without going to get it: The Force
-How to do the things you want to do: write up a creative list of both logical and slightly unrealistic things you'd like to do, pin it up on the wall where you will see it all the time, then let it glare at you till you do something on the list just so you feel a little more satisfied and accomplished with your life. :D Or I guess you could follow the first "How to" on this list.

Till another Day!

Alway, and Other Thoughts.

So I was driving home from my boyfriends place tonight and thought, "Hey, I'm not too tired. I think I will read over my poetry for class tomorrow morning." (I just know I am going to regret doing so at 7 am). The poet we are going over this week is Christina Rossetti, a English poet who lived in the mid to late 1800's. Her stuff is really good, 'cept for the fact that there are words I have to google like "alway." When I looked it up, the dictionary told me it is a Middle English word for always, or all the way. You know my next step, Widipedia *fist-pump*. Though the article was a mix of being intruiging and booring it also revealed to me that Middle English ended around the year 1470 . . . and being as late as it is I have no desire to research it further at this delightful time of night. (Though I suppose the word is one of those that carried over from the shift in the evolution of the written and spoken word of the English language (not like you are so incredibly interested in the topic).

On to juicier topics . . . .

I did a video response on youtube a while back in where I attempted to talk with an Irish accent. I butchered the accent but I suddenly have people telling me I need to make more videos. Even sadder... I am considering it. I know, I know, it is SUPER lame to start into a internet trend after it has been going for . . . well. . . years. Oh well, I guess there are worse things I could do with my time.

School is going pretty well. Super stressful, but really good. I thought I would have time to work out this semester. Lol, oh boy, not unless I buy toners for work or cram my schedule tighter. I really, REALLY want to graduate on time but I don't know if I can afford to risk lower grades just so I can get out of school into the real world (not like the "real world" is any more harsh, real, or adventurous than the world I am living in now). Then again, if I don't take the two extra classes I need to graduate, that will give me more time to save up before I begin paying off student loans. *sigh*
Another thing with being where I am, it is weird looking back, seeing how far I've come, wondering how I got to where I am now (not like I actually don't know), and the worst, where I am going to be when it is all over and I start down the road of the rest of my life. They ask you these questions when your younger, but I am not a paleontologist or a firefighting-balerina-princess-warrior. Now that I am here and I'm catching my third wind for the race as my last lap begins, so many people are starting to ask me what I plan to do. Honestly, though the question scares me, I have no idea. The farthest plans that I have made are to keep my options open, be prepared if opportunity's come my way, and to continue loving the people I love and pursuing the goals and passions that I have. Driving is a great time to think about things . . . everything, and I have decided . . . that I will not make any solid plans past this December (at this point in time. I guess my long lost friend, life changes, could decide to visit my door, but we haven't visited for a couple years). Any further than that and the current future becomes a twist of exciting and bleak. I don't have the slightest clue what God has in store for me. All that I know is that I have this feeling that this is going to be a great school year. I'll let you know how it goes ;)
Well! That was a long one! But that's what happens when I blog late at night after a long week.

Random Act of the Day: Took a seven minute power nap during a break in my night class. It was fantastic!
Current Contemplation: Human behavior (sorry, nothing fun or witty on my mind tonight). . . , and wondering what would it be like if people gave off some sort of constant light.

Till another day!